it’s because I have to write these
stories about life in the form of journals from which I can draw on raw emotion at a later
date. I don’t think I’d mind if you read through them, but you’d need
to understand the context. as long as you keep that in mind I can consider allowing
you into my little world, into my thoughts. and consequently, into my dreams and
aspirations and into my life as the result. it’s not such a bad place, but
it’s been lonely.